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| The mad blood being stirred by the angry hand |
Seeking out to destroy what stands in the path
The inevitable fear has been implanted in our being
You only fear what you don't understand
These foul thoughts are making my brain hurt
My past messes up my present & future emotional status
So it's hard for me to love, & it's not easy for me to hate
Those eyes
The eyes that hypnotize me every time I look at the beautiful girl of my dreams
This fantasy plays in my head, over & over
Making me want to act it out...
But I can't because my mind is trying to take over my heart
How could I risk loosing what I don't have
Maybe I don't have it, because I don't need it
This hounding shame, unavailing me to uncover my past
How long could I keep pretending?
This evil has lodged itself into my thoughts
Convincing myself I was the villain
I'm a dead man
They already told me I was gonna die
As a matter of fact, they said they were gonna kill me themselves
But they have lied to me before
So f**k the voices in my head
The tears running down the cheeks of an abused child
Who has no f***ing idea what kind of problems this will bring
My life is full of maybes'
Maybe I should be with her
Maybe I should be dead
Maybe he wouldn't have hit me it I did everything right
Maybe this in nobody's f***ing business
The black heart in my chest, & the evil mind in my head
Want to kill each other
And I'm just hanging on long enough to see who wins
After all this bulls**t & all this suffering
It doesn't matter
Because I always end up thinking about the girl I'm not with.
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I'm alone & I'm still alive
Take my life, because I'm no longer trying to survive
Look at me
You shouldn't waste you tears
I will unwillingly bring forth all you fears
I saw the light
But it started to fade
I tried to clean up
But the mess was already made
My damned soul wondering this half earth
How much do you think this fake life is really worth?
Seeking redemption
Is that all you want, attention?
Seeking oblivion
You never acted of treated me fair
Forgotten the soul that was once standing there
All this hope
With no hope of finding it
Tired of hearing the nonsense that was spit
The day is gone, the night is here
My fate has left and I can't shed a tear
The dark flames entered my soul & devoured it
Making my body twitch & my skin melt
But it's bulls**t because you never told me how you felt
The evil has descended upon my head
It entered my brain & my conscious was fed
I could smell the angel of death from many miles away
But my disillusioned mind didn't let is stay
So, as it came to be
Am I just wasting valuable breath
Try to envision & acknowledge
The danger of Death.
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I try to get up
But you hold me down
Right in the water
Because you want me to drown
Find me and take me out of this depressed state
They say death is coming soon
I hope it's worth the wait
I keep choking on my words
They won't come out my mouth
Maybe if I scream, that'll get them out
I'm drowning in disparity
I'm loosing all control
I hope I don't get in trouble for the brain that I stole
I got it in a nightmare, the day I hit thirteen
My old brain was tired or what I've heard and what I've seen
I think I've done it this time
I think I cut too deep
I see this in my nightmares when I fall asleep
I'm not complaining, I understand
When I die, will you hold my hand?
How is it going to happen?
Will blood come out my vein
Just as long as it's slow
And I feel all the pain.
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I don't know where I am
But I know where I've been
And I can't really control the s**t that comes out of my pen
I'm starting to sweat
But I fee the world getting colder
And my burden is to carry all this weight on my shoulder
I'm loosing my mind
I can't take this place
I deserve to be cursed
Because I'm the world's disgrace
Why me?
That's a stupid question to ask
Not saving
But destroying the world is my task
None of us deserve to be here
We all deserve to die
You only show your ignorance when you start asking why
Your mouth on a gun?
That's a cowards way out
But nobody knows what life is about
The burden of life
The curse of a mind
And everything in between, is what the world finds.